I haven’t given up my religion. Grey’s Anatomy will remain my obsession until the end of its run. This episode just obtained its title as one of the best episodes—along with the previous episode—ever. This two-hour blowout had me sweating, crying, laughing, and just wanting more. We lost a beloved character and we’re left with a lingering question: who will Meredith choose?

          Who Meredith chooses has my head spinning. Personally, I want her to choose Finn. I’ve strongly stated my hatred for Derek ever since he called Meredith a whore. My opinion of him hasn’t changed. It seems surprising to me why Meredith even chose to take off her panties for him. Finn has plans. And he loves her. Meredith is allergic to plans though. There’s no way she’s going to commit to a relationship with McVet. On the other hand, Derek’s divorce is on the way if Meredith does decide to choose him. I don’t want to see Addison hurt. But this is assuming that Meredith will make a decision and choose one. She can give up on both. For all I know, she can even date both. But I still think she’s in need of a safe relationship. She needs to have plans; she needs to have a decent guy. She needs Finn. Seriously.

          Of the other lingering unanswered questions of the episode: what’s Izzie going to do next season? Denny dies and Izzie quits. She is no longer an intern at Seattle Grace. In the past few episodes, Izzie has become the most interesting character. Her face lights up when Denny reassures and remembers his proposal. She’s going to marry him and it’s the night of the prom. What I thought was interesting was the fact that Shonda stated that in her mind, Izzie was the first intern that was going to leave the program. All this time, I thought it was going to be Alex. The writers seem to like him.

          The scene where Izzie lies with dead Denny on the hospital bed was beautiful. There hasn’t been such a beautiful scene in a while. Izzie realizes how ridiculous this whole thing is. A few hours before, Denny was proposing. A few hours later, he dies. That is the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard. I’m always referring to the immaturity of the interns (they are interns), and it seems like at this point in Izzie’s journey, she realizes what life is really like. Life sucks and the deserving people don’t get what they deserve. In Denny’s case, he wasn’t given the chance to enjoy his brand new heart. It was hell to get that heart. Now, if this is one of those life experiences that change the whole course of events to come, I hope it’s now. I want Izzie back at the hospital.

          Cristina and Burke end the year in a somewhat positive way. After bailing on Burke in the OR room, Cristina decides to stick with the man she loves. Witnessing what happened to Denny, Cristina realizes that being with the people you love is the only thing worth doing in the world. She grabs his hand and they will remain together now. I hope.

          Cristina was going through a rough patch during the episode. She especially falls apart in the Chief’s office during her one-on-one with him. She has lost her edge. And she’s being affected. She says that a year ago, she would never have been in that room. A year ago, she also didn’t have a heart. She would have put her career before her friends. She doesn’t think like this anymore. Interesting enough, Cristina was ready to give up Izzie’s name to get the answers from the Chief. It just goes to show how much we still need to learn about Cristina. She is twisted. And she is selfish. And whether she was ready to give up Izzie’s name is unclear, but one thing is for sure, her loyalties are flexible.

          I don’t hold that against her. Like Izzie, she is confused. Her loyalties do in fact lie with her friends, but whether she is one-hundred percent dedicated to them is debatable. This goes for all the interns. God knows Meredith is confused; she has to pick between two men now. God knows Alex is confused about his feelings for Izzie. It doesn’t show, but I’m sure that’s going on in his head. God knows George is confused over his feelings for Callie. The point of being an intern is to be confused. And this confusion is apparent in Webber’s office. The one-on-one interview scenes were genius:

-          Alex has changed a lot. He’s more mature. Using football as a metaphor, he explains that he never wanted to work at Seattle Grace, but he explains that he will always play with the team. He will protect the team (the interns) and he will come out every day and give it his all. Brilliant from Justin Chambers’ part.

-          The Cristina scenes were flawless. Yes, Cristina has lost her edge. And yes, she does need it back. But there’s also something positive about all of this; she has become more human. Sandra Oh was brilliant as the broken-down Cristina desperately asks for help. The Chief says he has the answers, but he will not tell her, not if it makes her less human.

-          Izzie has the big boobs…and the blond hair…and the nice body…and the beautiful face. All this time, she has felt like people only look at her because she’s a pretty girl. But Denny goes and marries her. He notices her because of who she is. Another stunning performance by Katherine Heigl.

-          After having apologized to Meredith, George seemed different. In his one-on-one with Webber, he seems to have lost his uneasiness. I loved when he says that life sucks. It does.

-          This is the reality: the Chief had an affair with Ellis. Meredith figures this out. He was the reason for this whole mess. He is the reason Meredith feels so lost. He is responsible for her mother’s divorce. Yes, you guessed it: another stunning performance for Ellen Pompeo.

          I’m rooting for George and Callie. There’s something about Callie that wins me over. George is confused. How can he keep his private life (Callie) away from his public life (his friends)? And what he says makes absolute sense. If he tells her he loves her now, he’s doing it because she wants him too. George wants to mean what he’s going to say. He has come a long way and I hope he can find a good way to integrate Callie into his personal life. He has to learn how to compartmentalize. But Callie is definitely a keeper.

          The idea of a prom in the hospital was genius. Everything on this show is genius. Concluding Camille’s story, the hospital hosts a prom. Webber throws it obliging everyone to come. Even Bailey had to go. That was fun. The hospital felt like a high school: the bad punch, sex in private rooms, rumours spreading around… I loved the interns having to work on decorations. That’s right up their ally. Hopefully everything will end well for Camille. I wonder if we’ll ever see her again. Anyway, beautiful story. I love Tessa Thompson.

Dear Diary

Izzie: That’s it. I quit. I’ve had it. Denny died and there’s no point anymore. I’m not a surgeon. I know it now. Seeing Denny dead on the hospital bed, his hands cold, his head cold…I can’t do it anymore. I loved him. He loved me. I was more than a pretty girl to him; I was the one for him. He was the one for me. An hour ago, he proposed to me. And now he’s dead. Isn’t that the most ridiculous you’ve ever heard? That’s the most ridiculous piece of crap I’ve heard. Every day, every hour, I was checking on him. How can I live without him now? How can I just go on without him being right there next to me? He was so happy lately, and for a stupid aneurysm to take that away from him…I don’t know what to do.

George: I can’t just tell her I love her. I’ve been over this in my head time and time again. If I tell her I love her, I won’t mean it. Callie doesn’t understand this. I know she loves me. But I can’t say it because she wants me too. I want to mean it. Besides, I can’t think about it so far. Denny died and Izzie is going to go through a hard time. She literally couldn’t keep her eyes off his corpse. We couldn’t keep our eyes off her. Thank God Alex came to pick her up. I hope she’ll be able to bounce back. These weeks have been just insane. I need a break. We all need a break. Is Izzie even going to come back to the hospital? She says she’s done. I don’t want her to be done.

Today’s Baileyisms

-          “Oh, no, no. You don’t get to look at me like that. No, you compromised my medical license, you nearly killed a patient, lied to the Chief of surgery, made your resident look bad. We’re going to do this prom and we’re going to do this right. Move!”

Quotable Quotes

-          Camille: “Be kind to him. He loves me. I’ve been loved. And that’s something everyone should have, once in their life. I’ve been loved.”

-          Cristina: “I didn’t like teenage girls when I was a teenage girl.”
Meredith: “I wore a lot of black.”
Cristina: “Ooh.”
Meredith: “Had the whole angry pink hair thing going on. Wouldn’t have been caught dead at a prom.”
Cristina: “My mother made me go. My date barfed on my dress and then tried to feel me up.” I loved this.

-          Meredith: “No! I’m not alright? Okay? Are you satisfied? I’m not alright. Because you have a wife, and you call me a whore, and our dog died, and now you’re looking at me again. Stop looking at me.”
Derek: “I am not looking at you. I am not looking at you.” Sure, you’re know.

-          Cristina: “Hey! We stick together, we all did this. Nobody’s a victim. We stick together. (Everyone looks surprised): “Damn it.”
Izzie: “Thank you.”
Cristina: “You’re welcome.”

-          George: “Hey I was looking for you, where are you going?”
Callie: “I’m wearing a dress, I have on heels, I shaved my legs, I’m going to the prom.”
George: “You said you didn’t wanna go.”
Callie: “No, I said I didn’t wanna go with you.” I love Callie.

-          Denny (to Bailey): “I tricked her into marrying me. How smart am I?”

-          Bailey: “What? Alright, one of you better spit out the problem right now.”
Alex: “The problem is the colors and-and the balloons and the Under the Sea. No, it’s Titanic. Hey, let’s go with Tears In Heaven. No, that’s too morbid. It should be pink, it should be red, it should be a freakin' rainbow.”
George: “What he’s saying is that we’re very very hopeful that you speak teenage girl.” Alex is hysterical.

-          Denny: “What? You like your men sick and feeble? You don’t dig healthy guys?” I guess she doesn’t.

Some Final Notes

-          Doc dies. That was incredibly sad. Meredith completely broke down. Doc was her dog. I loved the idea of burying him in Derek’s acres of lawns.

-          I loved Dr. Hahn’s surgery. She invents the “Erica way:” wait for the damn heart to beat.

-          Webber obligated the surgeons to organize the whole prom. NO SURGERIES!

-          I liked how Cristina turned out to be the person who forced the interns to stay together. Cristina has changed.

-          Meredith was a badass in high school. She wouldn’t go to her prom.

-          I liked the fact that Denny remembered that he proposed to Izzie. She was glowing when she sees him after the surgery.

-          Webber forced Bailey to go to prom. Classic Chief stuff!

-          I can’t believe Alex had to deal with Camille’s friends.

-          Callie felt neglected when George hadn’t showed up the night before. If she only knew what was going on.

-          Finn was crowned king at prom. He is that type.

-          I loved watching the Chief freak Brian out.

-          Finn’s wife died in a car crash. It seems like everyone dies in a car crash these days. She is the last woman he’s ever been with.

-          That steamy sex scene (you know which one) was steamy. It seemed kind of sleazy, but that’s what sex is. I liked Derek asking Meredith what they’re going to do next. It’s always Meredith who has to provide the answers.

-          I loved Callie helping Meredith get dressed when the former catches her having sex. Did I mention I love Callie?

-          Alex being the only one to comfort Izzie after Denny’s death was great. He does have a soft spot.

-          Is Izzie out of the show?

-          Who will Meredith choose? It’s driving me crazy.

-          “Losing My Religion” is a song by R.M.E.

This season has been the best season of any show since Alias’ second season…maybe better. I’m sorry the review was longer than usual, but I think it deserved it. 6 stars. Fantastic.

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